Re-embracing my Rainbows

Each day is a blessing-not a burden a choice-not a chore

And each day is beautiful.

I have come to the realization, again (funny how life keeps reminding you), that...right now, life is perfect. It may not be what I expected, what I had planned...but it's part of the bigger plan. And I'm okay with that. 

I may not have a clean house, or fancy things. Hell most days I'm lucky if the things I do have don't have food spilled or body fluids smeared on them. I may not have a lot of money, but money can't buy everything...and we have enough to keep us safe, happy, and full.

Plus...

I do have a wonderful husband who loves, and even more precious, cherishes me. Not to mention the amazing father he is. I have two beautiful, happy, healthy, and sometimes almost too smart for their parent's own sanity children, and I have a healthy child growing inside me. I have gratitude in my heart and a song in my soul. And that you can take to the bank! (and the grave...)

I was singing the other night to Abby before bedtime, "The Dream Song" as we call it from Cinderella. I got to the part about "Have faith in your dreams, and someday...Your rainbow will come shining through.." and I realized as my daughter was 'singing' (its adorable, really) with me I have my rainbows. I still have my dreams, aspirations, and goals for the future. But I am a damn lucky woman to know my rainbows have shone through. 

Through all the storms and clouds of worry and doubt my rainbows shine through to shower me in light and color, encouraging-almost daring me- to dance in the rain...

If the shoe fits...

...You don't always have to wear it. 

 I am 50 days into my 100 days of happiness challenge...half way through to an improved outlook on life! I find am doing better at accepting and embracing my emotions. Finding happiness every day, in the extraordinary and the ordinary.The problem you ask? I have been embracing ALL of them, and I have noticed that some of my emotions are SO not worth embracing. 

The self-doubt and negative self talk should not be embraced as easily as the positive and loving emotions. However, ignoring them is just as harmful as feeding them. When ignored they are like weeds, that slowly take over slowly until they are hard to get a handle on. 

 There is nothing wrong with having these thoughts, they are a natural part of the human process. Acknowledge them and let them go, don't embrace...Don't feed or ignore the weeds of your mind. They are  like a pair of shoes shoved in the back of your closet. It's okay to pull it out put it on, so long as you don't wear it...take it off and toss towards the back again...this is my goal for the next quarter of the challenge..