Mommyhood the second time around...

Yesterday little Abby made one month, and what a month it has been too! A month full of memories, laughter, tears (both happy and sad), smiles, snuggles, and fears.

The lessons learned this month are many..motherhood the second time around is just as rewarding! However, it is just as fraught with trials and woes..and I'm sure that doesn't change with any new child.

My breastfeeding woes were plenty (again...) but finally breastfeeding is becoming enjoyable! I still have fears and tears that come and go. Am I doing the right thing? What is the right thing? When will this heal? Why can't I feel normal again? Questions and doubts fleeted in and out throughout the month..but so did the smiles, snuggles, and happy memories. It is so amazing watching my son become a big brother, watching him grow and learn. Caring for Abby, nurturing her amazing little body and soul as she becomes part of this world..what could be sweeter?

As the all knowing trash heap sings "We've all got troubles, we've got strife, we've got wo-o-o-es" (Fraggile Rock reference for those of you who are confused :D) But in the long run its all worth it. Life doesn't throw anything our way that we can't handle..all we have to do is figure out the tools necessary and the shoulders to lean on...and I'm figuring it all out, slowly but surely with the help of my wonderfully fantastic and amazing family and friends! I am one blessed girl...

Playing at the Park with my kiddos on St. Patrick's Day! 

All in all..Motherhood is well worth all the ups, downs, and roller coaster dips. It's a wonderful life, and I intend to enjoy it to the last drop.  <3 nbsp="">

Sweet Release

"Some people believe holding on and hanging in there are signs of great strength. However, there are times when it takes much more strength to know when to let go and then do it."

-Ann Landers

In my limited life experience there is little that has been more empowering than giving birth. But for me the hardest part of labor, is waiting for it...

I've always been a planner...I've been making lists ever since I learned how to write. So, the unknown of when baby G is blessing our family with her presence is an ongoing crick in my neck (and back, and ribs, and...lol...little pregnancy humor there). Everyone says, "Don't worry! They can't stay in there forever" Well, I know that as much as the next 9 month pregnant woman...but knowing that doesn't make it any easier to wait. <3 nbsp="" p="">

So the other morning I found myself at the beach, I sat on the rocks feeling the waves of the ocean at my feet and looking out into the great unknown that is the sea. I felt calm and connected, to myself, my baby, and the world. A peaceful experience that lead me to this goal of letting go...

Let go of my plans, and thoughts...trust in myself and my baby.  My goal for each day while waiting for baby to come is to listen with my heart, and turn down my thoughts...and Trust. 

Here goes nothing...